• i sit here now...god howcan i say something like this when its raining outside and shes................gone.
    it all stared in september. i didn't mean to hurt her but i guess it just came out the wrong way.
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    "Levi!!"
    I turned my head and saw adlie.
    "sup?" i asked.
    "do you know what day it is?"
    "Mmmmmm-monday?"
    She sighed and shook her head, "no you dork, it Valentines day!"
    "Oh joy."
    "Oh," she said with a sigh, " i forgot you don't like valentines day..."
    i sighed she would proble have something for me and expect something from me...."Think fast" i thought
    "here," She said handing me a small blue box.
    "What is it?"
    "open it and see."
    i opened the darn thing and inside held two tickets tosome consert i wanted to see. "wow," i started "thanks."
    "your welcome...um...who are you gonna take with you?"
    "i dunno....amanda."
    her smile faded, "Oh......im sure shed like that!"
    ***
    the weeks roled by and she hadn't talked to me for a while....in fact i hadnt seen her for a while...
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    "Levi..." said a small voice
    "oh hi.." i said....it was adile.
    "um.....i -i-..........i love you..."
    i didnt even stop walking "i know" it seem like it didnt matter i mean i didnt think shed take some little puppy love that'll fade in like-three weeks...and make it last.
    Truefully i got a girlfriend and adile didn't say anything really but i could tell she was waiting........... but she still kept that puppy love in her heart when i had turned her down , when i got new girlfriends, and when i final came to a point when i broke her heart entirely.
    " im sorry" i had said "But i dont feel the same- i cant i-"
    "Its not that you cant ist that you wont! ive been wating and ive told you how i felt many a time but you still wo-"
    "You dont feel that way you just say you do!!! i mean comeon...what do you see in me -im worthless."
    "Your not worthless you just think that! and im not just saying that!!!! i could have had someone else hold me and i didnt want someone else i want it to be you!!! ive told you already and it seems to go in one ear and out the other...god I LOVE YOU!!! with all my heart and this feeling is not going to change..."
    "Alrigh you want a definate answer ok- I DO NOT LOVE YOU!!! and i dont think i ever will!!!!"
    She walked off at that and she hadnt been to - well anywhere and it was getting to a point to where..her parents were worried.
    the next day i looked threw the paper and in the obitchuaries was....her name...
    i had got how it happened from her parents...she had hung herself.
    at her funeral her casket lay closed. she had pulled the rope so tight that it left to many marks and her parents didnt want to see that.
    as i walked around the room there was one of those slide show picture frames. as i stood staring at the the pictures and one came by of her and me together... she seemed to be the happest in that picture....
    God i was and idiot