• Am I realy living this life?
    Nothing ever feels right
    I wouldnt care if i died tonite
    So I take this gun and lock and load
    it seems like suicides my only road
    I put the Glock up to my dome
    And get visions of hell, my one true home
    Because theres no heaven for people like me
    For someone like me, like us, its the only place to be
    Dont say I didnt try, I did my best
    But it don't matter now I'l Be put to rest
    Lifes so Hard, tryin to keep it real
    Familys poor so I go and on on the streets and deal
    Its hard, knowing your friends are going to be the buyers
    Giving them the stuff that gets them even higher
    Its Messed up, Selling stuff to a homie
    Husling them and treating them like a cronie
    Saying you got love but knowing its all phoney
    I tell myself i can Change
    To not mess up And rearrange
    But As Im about to pull the trigger
    Visions of my life grow bigger and bigger
    About all the times Ive betrayed and lied, escaped and cried
    putting smoke into my lungs, feeling my brain getting fried
    But now I know theres another way
    so I guess I wont kill myself today
    Forget what the haters have to say
    Im not A crimminal I do this Just for the pay
    so I tell Myself Ill be okay.
    I know lifes hard, Its hard for you too
    Knowing you do wat u got to do
    But dont give up Theres Hope For You
    If I can Change So Can You