After the Storm

• Artist: xPastelRainbows
• Description: Months after a break-up, it is never easy to let go of the feelings of your first love. Lingering feelings are upsetting... Especially if you are the reason you have them
• Date: 10/16/2009
• Tags: after storm breakup lingering

After the Storm

Maybe they weren't the things that you never said
But the things that I never could see
Those times of silence were really how you showed me
That I don't always need to be given affection to know I was loved

Maybe it was the way I never controlled my anger
Or perhaps the way that you constantly kept to yourself
Even so, I understand that I am a human
Allowing demons to unleash onto you

Some days I suppress the guilt and regret held inside
Some nights I cry without a sound
And as the nights turn into days
I can feel the pieces of who I was shatter into glass

I was wrong.
I don't want to tell you, but I understand I was wrong
It was my fault for allowing you to fall out of reach
And I spend silence asking myself how it came to this

The wall around me is broken
Yet why can nobody see that I am broken?
Was it that I do not exist?
Am I really nothing?

Like the seasons, I wish I could turn back
I wish I could tell you what I know now
And give you your decision
I understand now what it means by first love

Even now, after the storm, I have faded away
Into the dusk, I fall into the darkness
So then why to I pray for you to hold me one last time
Before I lose us...?

Comments

[snakesta]

Small word mistake, "So then why to I pray" should be "do," just figured I'd tell you. But trust me I've been there, I know what you mean. Feel like I'm both people in the poem at some point even. It's good I'd say though.