• I shattered your heart into pieces, a million and one
    You thought I was different, now you think you were wrong
    The saddest thing is that was where the pain just begun
    Because even though you doubt me, my love remains strong

    I’ll tell you a secret, one I bet you never knew
    When I broke your heart mine shattered into pieces a million and two
    But something else you don’t know and might not believe
    I wanted you to fight for me Nicky, because I am me.

    At times my strength wavers and my mind clouds with doubt
    But if you think I used you and lied, you never knew what I was all about
    I loved you like no other and doubt started when you lied
    I needed you to help me stay strong…….apparently your hands were tied

    You think I don’t understand how much pain you’ve been in
    But you don’t know what I feel, you don’t know what my demons begin
    When I lost you my world took a dark turn
    But I threw what we had away so I guess it’s what I earn

    When I lost you depression settled deep into my soul
    Month by month, day by day, my darkness is reaching its goal
    Without you I feel empty and I drown in my tears
    Maybe one day you can forgive me but I doubt it won’t be for years

    I still love you Nicky, heart, mind and soul
    Without your love back, life’s taken its toll
    The world isn’t as happy as it once was
    It’ll never be the same and that’s just because

    I threw away something, I realize now
    I might never get back cause I don’t know how
    All I can say is I’m sorry dear one
    I know it’s just a word, and nothings undone

    All’s I can do is try to get through to you
    If you’ll listen to this poem, my heart, lets see if you knew
    Do you remember who I was? Do you know who I can be?
    To me you were everything…you still might be lets see

    But I guess that doesn’t matter now to you
    Just listen to the heart I just spilled out for you
    And remember how I loved you, cause I always will
    I suppose it’s time for me to swallow the bitter pill

    Now you can crush it like I crushed yours
    My heart was in this rhyme, so do your worst
    No matter what you say or do to me
    I’m always gona be here for you Nicky

    I know you probably wont, I know you better than that
    But it’s what I deserve along with a hard a** smack
    I deserve all I get, and you deserve so much more
    Just wait and see what your life has in store

    No matter what you think, you I have not forsaked
    I’m here for you always, just my hand you need take
    I’ll love you forever and always you’ll be
    My very first love, my strongest one, my beautiful Nicky