I hate this empty feeling in my chest. I love Heero so dearly but all the energy I give him is poison. I still love him but if I don't get better soon the distance will become unbearable. I don't want topoinson him with my energy or word's so I'm stuck in a very hard position. I won't leave him and thats final. Leaving him has never and will never be an option. I really don't know wht to do and no one is giving me any answers. I'm very very alone in my desitions here and they all expect me to do this on my own. I really want to work with him but he is not giving me that option. I just want thing's to be fixed, I want to be happy again, I don't want to feel like my smile is forced. I just want to be happy with him. Him and I togeather like we have both dreamed of many times before. Someone please help me, I've never felt so alone.
Please, Help Me.
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The Life of Kaji
Whenever my life starts getting eventful I'll post all the things that have been going on that is once I find time. This is a cool venting tool for me and it let's the reader know more about my life and me. Feel free to leave comments.
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