|
Biting my lip
"I wish I could breath. I hate it when I get worked up like this. I haven't slept or eatten much in the past week and I think it's catching up with me. Ive been feeling almost sick like headache and nausea. I'm so stressed out with everything that is happening. I have to get in my reccomendations, finish my essencial skills for my classes, do PE correctives, homework, chores, be secratary of the Speech and debate team, treasuror of the GSA, dealing with homecomming that is next week and managing a relationship with the love of my life. I have so much to balance but all I really want to do is be wrapped in Sam's arms. I completely cracked on Wensday. I was feeling low cause I rally missed Sam and I had a test in night school. I was planning on spending time with Sam that dat but I didn't even get to see hi because I was in a GSA meeting, I really wish I left sooner. So I found out he went to Kat's and began to cry because I didn't know why didn't stay. I should have waited to find out she was his only ride to Tai Kwon Do. I blew up on Kat and felt really bad when she told me why. I broke down and told Sam about my bad day and he has been in pain ever sence. I have now promiced to not call him when I know he is at his friends house and that I'll go to the school nurse. I still think all she'll tell me is to just eat more just like everyone else. But thats the things you wouldn't eat to if you felt like throwing up every time you stick something in your stomach."
|
