I refuse to like the guy I mentioned before. I know I like just wrote that, but liking him, it causes me too many unnecessary problems. I hate knowing that he'd never like me back and I hate never feeling good enough. And then it makes me think of how I'll be alone... I know I'm kinda young to be thinking all this but... yeah... I've always been more of a romantic ya know? But I', also a realist so I know that my chances - they don't seem high. It - I don't wanna say it hurts to think about him cuz it's not like I'm in love with him, but it makes me really sad. Ok, I'm blabbering. Off the depressing stuff (which is what's mostly on my mind)
My cousin called yesterday. He never calls so that was really surprising. I've been playing Animal Crossing more - I just paid off the morgage for my first upgrade yesterday. One of my friends said something that really hurt me. I was talking about the guy and how bad I felt and she said 'Well don't you have fun with us, your friends that actually care about you?' It wasn't what she said that hurt, but the way she said it. It was like no one else in the world cared about me or ever would. I had to hang up after that. I know I said I'd get off the depressing stuff, but I couldn't help writing that.
That's it I guess. This is just a long journal about nothing anyway. Sorry for wasting your time. Comment if you want. later - oh, and happy (belated) Thanksgiving! lol
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