Dont ruin everything.... Keep going... you may see the surpirse that you havent see it. Keep it up and you'll never know what happen to it.
Few weeks, i still dating sasuke. my dad found out and he tease cause he loves us. We dont mind about it. when i wasnt around him, I hang with my friends. Like brah, torag,hiten,mery,fudgi,cloud and my new friend tiduz although hes my rival. Its like my life has change. But will it stay on forever?
In the park, Sasuke and I make out for a long time. He stop and tells me something that i never heard. " Kirby my love, I wont be here for a while." I was worried. " How come?" He reply, " my parents and I are going somewhere and i wont be back in couple weeks." I hug him tight and whisper " I'll miss you sasuke.." He hugs back. " I'll miss you too Kirby." He let me go and walks away... leaving me alone.... I wave him and yell "I Love You!" He turns and smile "I Love You Too!" It was a happy moment ever.
Few days ago, I was here laying in the grass thinking about sasuke.......when Tiduz came my slight. " Sup KB!" I was coufused. Did he make fun of me?? " Tiduz leave me alone.... your hurting my feelings." He was worried " Dont you like the new nickname i gave you?" I never thought about it. " No..." he reply " You'll get used to it. I'll keep calling your new nickname" I flinch and look at the clouds. " Kb, how come your not with your friends or your 'boyfriend'?" I was shocked. I punch his chest " STALKER! WHY YOU NEED TO KNOW! " He reply " I was watching you while i was walking with my gf " I reply " Still stalker." I feel like i want to leave but he got my attention " Kb, Im not a stalker. Im your friend. Why would a friend stalk you when he/she is dating?" I look down making myself disappointed. Hes right. Why not a friend came by and say hi? " Tiduz... Can you leave me alone.. I want to think about all by myslef..." He didnt leave. He want to stay with me. " No.. im not leaving you. I want to know whats going with you and stop leaving people behind. Who knows when you need them?" My heart......its pumping faster... my eyes..... is left with tears... Am I crying?? i put my hands on my face and cry. he was shocked. Its not his fault for making me cry.... Its the memories in the past... " KB? Whats wrong? Did i hurt you?" I dont want anyone to see me cry.... i saw hiten and mery coming by so i stand up and run away leaving him..... but i didnt see what i was going... I accident trip over the wooden board and hit myself to the grass. I tried to get up but my knees bring pain. I saw tiduz and hiten coming thier way and also brah and torag on other side. The pain is killing me so i close my eyes hoping 1 of them will save me...
Its not tiduz fault... Its mines and i wont remember what happen back then...when i date guys I felt happy. Its like a dream come true but one day i heard that he used me to get jealous. I was heart-broken..... My smile went fate. Its ture... i was being used. Now... I've learn my lesson that i shouldnt date anyone cuz who know If you trust them or not. Im in depress everyday. I have pain,sorrow,tears, and worst is fears. Wherever i go my smile is not showing. I prefer to be alone so i cant hurt them. Whenever i hurt someone lifes, i blame myself. I want to kill myself but that will effect my friends and my life... Here i am.. alone with depress. My smile will never show. Hopefully the light will guide me to the right way....
I was asleep until i woke up with a conversation. Where am i? How did i end up here. Oh yeah... I fell down and pass out. I get up but i feel pain in my knees. Tiduz came and sat besides me. He asked with worried, " Are you ok Kb?" I lied " yea im ok. " He told me " Me and hiten came to save you and your friend brah and torag want to come. She told me about you." Thanks alot brah I felt upset. " I was surprise and speechless... Everything can make you smile." I reply " Not to me..." He reply. " Well Im going to cheer you up ok?" I shocked and said " No! Im good. Stay with your gf. I'll be fine" I gave him a weak smile. Brah came and hug me " Kirby! Your alive" I was happy to see her " Yeah. Im ok brah" She gave tiduz a weird looking stare. Did i miss something while i was pass out. Brah said " C'mon kirby lets go to your house." I agreed with her. So torag and brah carried me and went to my house. I felt disappointed with tiduz. He cant cheer me while hes dating. i was this close to explode but I can cool myself.
At my house, Brah and torag put me on the bed. " Thanks" and they say " your welcome" Torag said " If you need something let us know ok?" i nod them and they went back to thier house. I quickly fell asleep not to worry about my past.
~To be conutined heart ~
 I-MissKabbii01-I · Wed Jun 23, 2010 @ 10:22pm · 0 Comments |
