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I know, I really know.

Probably too much. I can't deny that we have shared so much together. I really enjoy your company. You're a good friend.

But I just feel that this is so one sided. I was never going to give it my all from the beginning. You cause too much pain than you're really worth. That doesn't mean you are a horrible person. You just have a few problems. Ones that aren't really your fault. Your upbringing was not the best, and I think there is a massive language barrier that makes things hard.

I'm never enough, and nor is your boyfriend I don't think. You expect everything but don't give enough to get it. You're really just about yourself and what others can do for you. Sure, you love; but it was the wrong person. I know I really shouldn't have lead you on like that, but you would just... you are just too emotional for your own good. I think you might be bipolar... or something.

I felt I just had to keep making promises that I can't fulfil just to keep you happy. Otherwise I would feel hurt because you were hurt. I guess I empathise too much. Maybe it is all my fault. You don't deserve this.

Why would anyone want an emotional wreck like me? It is just too hard work. For you and for me. You have to deal with the bullshit, I have to work on hiding it from you because I don't want to scare you.

This is so stupid. I wish I could forget this ever happened.