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What am I even supposed to do?

I can't get angry, because what if something happened? It would be stupid of me to assume that he is not going online for no reason. Perhaps he took a holiday -- it is spring break after all. But if that is the case, he should know to tell me, right? Is it okay to assume that one would know to tell someone what you're doing before you go away? Especially given they're your boyfriend.

I also hypothesised that maybe there have been some family issues, or maybe he was injured and is in hospital. Then, of course, it would be silly of me to get mad for him not contacting me because he has no way in the first place. Although entirely possible, I doubt it highly. There would be people he could contact and the news would eventually filter down... I'm sure.

Additionally, he could have been taking a lot of time to hang out with his kids. He has been spending a fair amount of time with me, instead of them. But even then, how hard is it to turn on your laptop and reply to a PM? Five to ten minutes of your day is hardly a difficult thing to ask for.

I don't want to be angry, or mad. I just want him to know that I dislike not talking to him for days on end; without creating a big fuss about it (which is why I don't really mention it). He already spends too much time online as it is, and it is concerning.

I just hate not knowing: not knowing where you are, what you're doing or even if you still care about me as you did before. Five days is a long ******** time, and I'm afraid of getting angry because it might be because of reasons beyond his control.

I'm going to give it another day or two, then I'm going to start letting go. I'm not one to be dragged around by my emotions. I matter, whether I believe that or not, it's true. If it hurts him, or if it hurts me, I don't care. I have to move on otherwise I'm going to go insane.