Another (so called) friend bites the dust. Two, actually. David and Meghan this time. My God, I'm done with them.
So, I was staying with them after coming back from Stockton. Erica was to be up there for another month (what a long month that was). After a while, s**t started to hit the fan. I started having arguments with Meghan because she's a ******** idiot. I was starting to not get along with David so well. It was all a disaster waiting to happen. Then, Meghan pulled some s**t. we had been on each others nerves constantly. on top of that, she kept hitting me. I had told her ten times that week, "Don't ******** hit me. stop ******** hitting me." You'd think she'd stop ******** hitting me, right? No. She's above me in the stupid ******** planet she lives on. One time, I kinda lost it. I yelled and shook my fist, not at her, and I didn't even say anything, just yelled. She and David kicked me out of their life right there. Apparently, according to David, I was now a serious threat to his "fiance" and unborn child. (Yeah, she was five months pregnant at the time. Also, she had only been 18 for four months. do the math, David was twenty.) In addition to that, apparently, I had been threatening to hit her for weeks. (Crock o' s**t) Recently they've let me back into their lives seemingly just to make me feel unwelcome. ******** that, it's my turn to exile THEM from MY life.
I also found out that night that Erica did something ******** stupid that i'm STILL pissed about. I don't know what she was ******** thinking to this day. When she brought me back down, she took MATT to Stockton. MATT of all ******** people! I was SO pissed when she told me. Her excuse was that she thought if she had a helping hand, she would be able to come back sooner. THAT'S WHAT I WAS FOR! and she had to bring me back because they couldn't afford an extra person to feed. I'm GLAD he drank all their booze and pissed everyone off. She then put his a** on a bus back home. HOW? How is that not something that you just don't ******** do?! I don't get it. And I'M the a*****e for being mad about it because she had good intentions. But whatever. that was forever ago now.
Still on that night, Leaving David's house. (Because he wasn't going to allow me staying till morning, remember, I'm a serious threat) I had nowhere else to go but to my parents house. (Fun) Whatever, as soon as I get a job, I'm out. I finally got my GED, so that's out of the way. My mom still treats me like crap, b***h hit me with a table lamp a couple weeks ago! She broke the damn thing. I need out of here so I can just forget about this place. And just today she demands I pay rent or "get the ******** out of her house".
Two or three months ago, I saw Corey again. He completely ignored my existence. I was trying to get his attention to try to talk things out, also he had my copy of the Scott Pilgrim movie. (I've bought a new copy since then, cheaper than the last.) He just stared ahead like i wasn't even there. Later that day, He flipped me off from a car window! What the ********?! Oh well, he moved back to Missouri, where he belongs.
On top of all that, Erica and I have been having more and more fights over me not being able to get a job. I swear, it feels like i'm on some no-hire list. the places that don't blow me off just lead me on until they fill the spot. I need a job YESTERDAY.
On a brighter note, I've made a new friend in the chaos with David and Meghan. His name is Drew. David and I knew him a few years back, but he was a punk then. Right now, he's recovering from various drama, that's as far as I'll describe that. He's living at David's place right now because his previous living conditions were just plain unacceptable, similar to mine, but worse. We've been hanging out a lot recently, I've been trying to get him to stop cutting and drinking. so far, I see progress, so I'm optimistic about it. I'm even thinking about introducing him to Kris.
Speaking of Kris, I feel I've been neglecting my friendship with Kris. I plan on putting work into that as well. I've been seeing more clearly recently where I should be focusing my attention as far as friendships go. I do still need to focus more on getting my own life on track, the first step being to acquire a job. It's just that that's SO difficult. I figured it'd be easier once the need and want for one was more prominent, but it's not.
On the subject of neglected friends, I've been talking to Isley more often. We actually went to the mall recently. It was the first time we'd ever hung out outside the old neighborhood. I think we'll be hanging out a lot more often soon.
Anyway, I think that's it for now, once more things come up, I'll let you know.
See you next drama.
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