Is it true that there is a reason for everything I wonder? Does doing one thing actually affect how something will happen thirty years from now? Everyone has faith in something. In a Material item, in a person, in a being. The being is God for a lot of people. I'm not sure if I believe in him though. I mean I went to church on and of my whole life. Yet I've never actually put any trust I have in Him. I don't think that He is responsible for the happenings on earth. I don't believe that you have to confess with your mouth and believe with your heart that God or Jesus Christ is your savior to go to Heaven. And if you don't you'll go to hell. Because If I have to change my lifestyle and my personality and my Goddamn Vocabulary to go to heaven then I rather rot in hell. But none of that applies to me because I don't think I believe in any of that. I believe that once you die. You're dead. No Heaven, no Hell, no Limbo. Just death. I can live my life freely with no strings attached. I don't have to worry about anything I do. I could have sex and not worry about sinning. I could cuss and yell and hate people and not worry about going to any Hell. But I am still curious as to what happens as I'm dyeing. Do I really see a white light? Does my life flash before my eyes? And what happens afterwards? Am I reborn into someone else with a worse life? Or Better? Even though I believe in something complete different will I still go to hell? What about heaven, despite what any bible says? I'll have to wait and find out I guess. I used to think I understood myself. I would analyze things and figure out so many different things. I would worry about other people and not myself. But know I don’t know. I don't study life anymore. I fit in, in a lot of different places. I think I'm a boring annoying lifeless person someday's. On others I think I'm a Happy, everybody wants to hang around me person.
.The.Super.Sadist. · Tue Jul 04, 2006 @ 02:19pm · 1 Comments |