drove my step father to walmart, foodlion, and auto zone and came home.. Not two minutes later I come back, driving my mom to the dollar store and there was an accident at the corner at the stop sign. Can't say anything about it, but it is the most horrible wreck I have seen while living in Ruby. I can't get my mind off of it because if I had been there 2-3 minutes earlier I could have been a part of that wreck. I could have been one of the cars flipped over in the ditch area. A friend was there with his father when my mother and I stopped to look and I couldn't go say hi to him. Couldn't trust my voice enough to do that. Just nodded to him and walked back to the car. Then when I thought I could talk I called him on his cell and he was still there. I had just about forgotten about the law when I asked him a question, but then remembered it after I said it. I felt horrible for not remembering it right off. *sigh* He seemed so closed off and distant, something I definitely did not want or needed. I wanted to be able to talk to him and have him understand, but I don't know if he did. We don't even talk in school anymore unless its a hi and I feel like we have just grown fully apart. Maybe he wants it that way, but I don't. Just to be able to talk to him without him seeming so closed off would be a miracle. I care about him, even now, and I can't change it. I don't WANT to change it. I hate trying to hide that from everyone, though I doubt they don't see it since people have always been able to read the way I feel. Does he have to act like a stranger? Can't we just have an interesting conversation without all the silence and hesitation? I don't know what he likes and he doesn't know what I like so can't we get to know each other? By the looks of it, thats a no. He doesn't seem to want that. I hope this gets to your eyes, because then you read my perspective on it all. This is all I shall add for now for I have things to do. Please, if anyone who reads this drives, drive safely and don't take life for granted. Some people today have just learned that the hard way.
 SkylightRose152004 · Mon Feb 07, 2005 @ 10:50pm · 0 Comments |
