No matter what i do i cant seem to do anything right
My mom and father are always angry or disappointed in me
My brother always makes me feel like im an intruder since i moved in 4 months later
My sister thinks im a cruel gothic girl
My little brother looks at me as a mean person
My friends are all i have
I dont know what to do
I pushed away the one person i loved and i feel so full of despair
I cant do anything right ,im useless,and unworthy
I sense no value in myself
I have nothing ,no skills,or specialties of any use to help my mother
I feel inferior to my own sister
I feel like a failure in the eyes of my family and those of the people around me
No matter how much i try to make things better i always manage to screw up worse
I want to have my life before it went bad
I dont want to have to leave my family
I am the black sheep here
I want to be with my family
Yet at this rate im only pushing them away
I wish i could just get away and never return
Go to a place where no one knows who i am
Where i can find solitude and not be able to hurt anyone
That is my Christmas Wish for every year.......................................
 Xara Mya · Sat Dec 23, 2006 @ 02:43am · 5 Comments |
