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Do you wish to see the Darkness of my Heart?
Sometimes I cant even stand my own journal writings, are you sure you can? Are you really sure? Just checking before you hit that button down there...
It always comes back...like herpes...
The depression is back
horray isolation that makes me like this...

I kept thinking...

people would be more better off with me dead, myself included...I mean all I ever do is be a burden to everyone
my family and parents would be happy because they could finance my brother through collage
my friends would probably be better off without me...not like I can help them with their drama any more or that I was any help in the first place
I think Kathy'd be better off too because she would have someone who lived close to her that could give her the attention that she needs...instead of someone a world apart

and then there's me...I think I'd be better off dead too...
I wouldnt have to worry about happiness
parents finding out about my so called "barcode" of cuts
wouldnt have to worry about depression
wouldnt have to worry about anything

plus there's the fact that people love you when you're dead more than when you're alive...

I wish I were dead...because then I wouldnt have to worry about life
just burning in hell with demons torturing me every waking minute until I pass out then repeating the process...

like my motto always says...death is always easier than life will ever be






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BiawKasai
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commentCommented on: Mon Jun 18, 2007 @ 01:01am
Why you! *whack*

I told you if you ever cut yourself again I'd whack you! just wait till I see you again! mad

And if you ever die, I'll be so sad and so mad I would love you less. I like you better alive than dead.

Actually, if you died, I'd want to follow your lead just to tell you so. =P


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