let me see where to start? I learned a while ago that my "boyfriend" can't come on anymore and he just left me saying that he can't come on anymore and he said bye... I haven't heard anything either, he just left, even if we didn't talk much I felt better that I had someone there for me if I needed it.
My mom and I have had an agrument and she nearly made me cry, and my sister was there too, but she behaved worse than me and I'm pretty positive that my mom hates my sister at the moment. All my life things have been agruments, and I'm tired of it!
My sister called me insane, even if it was sarcastic, it's been going on for too long and now...it hurts, it hurt to hear that even my own sister will say that to my face. like she could spit on me and think that it will just go through my soul, but instead it stains it and totures me.
How can I keep this up? life is hard I know but are the people closest to me supposed to hurt me too? I am supposed to let people trample on me when I'm most afraid? can I listen when I can't speak my own words? I don't think I can control somethings even if their so simple, how can I keep up with anything?
I try to believe in myself but it's so hard to do that when I have no cofidence. I'm not insane, I'm just sad. I want to be happy but it's so hard to be happy and be proud of the things I've done, but I must think positive =) I can at least try that
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