So I just recently lost a close friend.
This bothers me alot, even though I'm actually used to this kind of thing. But he was important to me, and was giving me alot of confidence I never had.
Which makes it all the worse because now it's back to square one with my whole confidence level.
Infact I think it's further back than square one now.
What makes it worse was I worked on a gift for him for Christmas that I had to mail in late because the post office has been closed, and I still have it, but it won't matter anymore...
I should just burn it, thowing it out wouldn't work enough...
But I put a piece of my heart in it, which makes it almost worse...
I'd be burning a piece of myself... not that it matters anymore but...
Well I think I'm just going to be an angst bucket now...
I know eventually I won't care anymore but I never forget about any of my friends no matter what happens between us, even if we're not friends anymore, I know I'm going to miss him everytime I think of him, just like I do everyone else...
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