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Why don't people listen to us? There is a wall put up everytime we say something. I feel that I am not heard. Would it kill anyone to listen? The poisonous words I will speak... the tragic thoughts built up inside my mind. To me, no one pays attention. If they did, I wouldn't feel like s**t scraped off the concrete.

Do I have to run my nails down a chalkboard for people to get attention? I feel like i do. It's not difficult to open a ear or both to hear what i am saying. Am I so boring? Am I so decadent you can't bear the words? Am I existant to you? It makes me wonder about you. Why don't people like take the ear wax out of your ears and listen? Its not bad to do so. I won't yell at you... only if you don't.. I will.

I am tired of the drama. So what if you don't see your lover? So what if you are having a shitty day? I deal with it. Be ******** mature and deal with it! I am sick of hearing it. I am bored out of my mind when its talked about. Why do people ask me for advice? Am I the wise person to give advice all the sudden? I can't give the best advice or the worst. My opinions are different and thought-out. So far, its been working for about.. oh 18 years and counting. If you want to be successful, at least try to figure it out for yourself. Don't come to me with everything right away.

Another thing, don't push me around! If it makes you happy to push me around, see a shrink and get some meds. I don't want to be your toy. I want to be me and be respected for doing that. If you hate my interests, don't talk to me. If you can't deal with the way i dress, get blinders and don't see me. You can't change me.. no one can. Its impossible. It's like changing something new. It doesn't need to be.

The point of the rant was to convey my feelings to you. It was not directed towards anyone. It was put here for viewing purposes and to show how I feel.