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i haerd from a friend back home, dying is the ultimate high. lol, maybe it is, i don't know, cos you only can die once. maybe thats why they all went, is it worth it, i dunno... maybe cos earth is so twisted and evil, people just do what they do cos they like it ? i dunno, i don't really care anymore, there is nothing much to do anymore.

whats gonna happen if i go to school tomorrow ? i don't think anybody knows, im tired of shoutng and pretending to get angry. people at school are so scared of me, im a ******** demon, lol, yes i am. i scare people so bad they have to call thier friends and even the councelor. THE ******** COUNCELOR!! HOW ******** SCARED MUST YOU BE TO CALL HER a** DOWN TO TEACH ME A ******** LESSON. you have to be very scared, and im only a boy. im not afraid of anything right now, nothing scares me, i have done nothng wrong. i have not hit anyone or touched anyone, i did not even treaten the coward on school ground. he treatened me on school ground, so he is ******** screwed tomorrow.

what can i do ? i have just gotta be honest with myself, make a mistake face up to it. NO bullshit, NO lies, just plain honesty. how hard can it be for others to do it like me ? its VERY hard, because they never want to admit they are wrong. they never want to show thier weak side. its SO ******** HUMAN!

im going to show the councelor tomorrow, how honest i can be. i will be sooo honest with her, she will wet herself 20 times over. i will telll her all my fights, what the ******** i did as a 14 year old with grown men. i actually do live up to my name, everywhere i go. im not angry at all, I HAVE NEVER FROWNED IN FRONT OF PEOPLE AT ALL. have you seen me frown at you before ? i never have, all i do is giving you THE ******** DIRTY LOOK THAT TELLS YOU YOUR A LOW-DOWN ******** SCUM OF A HUMAN BEING. i scared many people with my face, im such a bad boy. everyone thinks im a bad boy, cos i dress differently, cos i don't talk with people i don't know very well, because i don't have a relegion. BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT IS ON EVERYBODYS ******** DIRTY HEADS.

thats all i have to say, tomorrow the councelor will see a FIVE STAR CIRCUS in her room. with blood and justice included. i love human beings, when they are scared they screw themselves LIKE THE MOTHER ******** OF A WIFE BEATER JOSEF. he just screwed himself cos i never touched him on school grounds, i spat on him cos he provoked me, i asked him to fight me (not threatened) outside school, he threatened to fight me INSIDE school. all evidence points to him, lol, stupid fool should have thought twice before aproaching the councelor. if he tells her to back off tomorrow im going to file for false acusation. the bloody idiot has never done real buisness before, lol.

im sorry if i scared anyone of you today, im just showing you what its like when im quite angry. do you want to see me when im very angry ? i hope not, cos i won't like it either.