I'm sorry, but its another sad entry..
I'm still really depressed about my cat's death and I cry about it almost every day or so. Agh, its just so depressing! Its even worse since i'm the kind of person whos mind wanders to the things I never got to do with my cat, which just makes it all the more depressing!
There are just a few things that really bug me though. The biggest of which being that I wasnt there with her when she died, I was on the computer. I could've been there with her as she passed on. I hope its okay that I spent the entire day with her. Also the fact that when she started showing symptoms of coming death, I got her and brought her into my room and she peed on me and I threw her out. I must've caused her pain, which makes me feel horrible now. All I can remember about her death was how sad I felt when my little sister came in and told me that she had died. The only happy thought I have is that I spent some time outside with her body before it was put in her box for the cremators. Its pretty obvious to me i'm never going to get over her death, since I spent the entire duration of writing this in tears. I just cant get my mind off her death and what I could've done that I didn't that would've made her happier when she passed on.
I miss you a lot my little kitty~
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