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I hate how you make me smile.
I hate how you make me feel.
I hate that feeling that you give me now.
I hate it all.
I hate your voice.
I hate the sounds you make.
I hate the way your so perfect.
Your eyes.
Your face.
Even your hair.
I hate that I love you.
I hate that everything I do is always tangled up in some lie.
I hate that all you show me is love.
Sometimes.
I hate that you tell me you love me.
When you really don't.
I hate the way you whisper my name in the darkness of the night.
I hate the way I act around you.
I hate that I try to impress you, your nothing to impress.
I hate that I'm tired of loving you.
I hate that you let me go.
I hate that you left me so many times.
I hate that you have such a beautiful smile.
I hate that all my feelings for you have crashed down into a pile of nothing.
I hate that you make me feel like I'm worth it when I should just die.
I hate that you tell me everything's okay.
I hate that you say not to cry because I need to cry over what you've said or done.
I hate that you blame me.
Called me a b***h.
Called me a whore.
Called me many names that I'm NOT.



I hate myself because I love you.
Yet I stay with you because I know that's the one thing that I'm true to.
My feelings for YOU are that I love you.

Yet your feelings for me are completely different.