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Why is it that the men of my life always seem so much stronger than me? I feel like such an empty shell around them, like a deep dark abyss that has no eyes, no soul and no dreams. There is this... emptiness that eats me up thinking about it. I know it is probably just my nerves but, the thoughts still bother me.
They can get almost anything out of me, those two. They... make me feel so happy, so loved. I always want them close to me. They spoil me you know? Just like how I spoil them with my love, they pour on the attention when I am home. My brother pesters me until I spend time with him and my Dad goes out specially for me to get a movie that the two of us can watch together. He doesn't do that for anyone else in our family, just me. My brother wants me there at his work to keep him company and my Dad buys me treats for being at home to visit. They spoil me, they do and I give them all my loving. I tell them all my little secrets and smile extra around them. I laugh and try to help them out. When someone else tries to bring them down, I'm right there to bring them back up. When Mom has a dispute with either of them, I'm there. When they want some company or advice, I am glad to give it. I love them, I love them, I love them.
