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Ya’ll I am so sorry you have to see/read this. I highly suggest you keep on scrolling because this is gonna be a massive vent… So unfortunately, I live in a world where members of my own family (extended family to be precise) like to start rumors about me. They try to sabotage me, they try to separate me from members of my family, and they try to drive wedges into my relationship. Now I like to think that I’m a pretty strong person. I can handle stuff. I am a rock. But this time, I think this rock experienced one wave too many because it crumbled. I know the number one rule about rumors is “If you know it’s not true, then just hold your head high and don’t let it get to you.” Be that as it may, I can’t ignore this. I simply cannot.

It’s like an onslaught…I am being targeted by one specific person in my family for reasons unknown to me. I think back to when they first came into my life and I try to think about everything I’ve ever done, trying to see if I did anything to hurt or offend that person. I can never find anything. Ever.

I feel like they are trying so hard to make me suffer…but really what did I do to deserve this? Part of me wants to storm into their house and just confront them; letting our all of my anger, sadness and confusion in on shot. But the other part of me knows that I am stronger than that and doing that will get me nowhere. I was lucky this time that the rumor was told to someone who trusts and knows me. They automatically knew it wasn’t true and they shut the person down right away before telling me about it. It’s comforting to know that there are people that I can trust/people that will be there for me when I need them.

But honestly this needs to stop. They aren’t gaining anything out of it. I will not let myself be hurt by this anymore. I’ve got people behind me and I will fight before I fall. This isn’t middle school honey. This is the adult world. Petty s**t like what you’re doing just shows what a terrible, lowly, bitter, and ugly person you are. And because this is the real world, we resolve our problems with truthful words. Not lies that are squeezed through some fake smile.

Granted we’re playing your little game now. That’s fine. But pretty soon, the rules are going to change and I will be the one calling the shots. So you just sit back and feel all accomplished and mighty. You go ahead and put your feet up and let your guard down. Because when you least expect it, I will make my move; and when I do, you won’t have any idea what to do next. I promise you that.