I was mortified that I forgot about the planned get together with Jordan. She doesn't live that close so that make that drive for nothing is s**t. My brother forgot too. I think it was just all the last minute plans that kept getting thrown around. There was New Year's and then all the meeting up with his friends and work. Ugh, just so much s**t has happened already and it's just the start of the year.
Today I broke down those barriers that I set for my own safety and drive to Thunder Valley Casino to see him. First I texted and he was just leaving. I went anyway. He texted me some more but it isn't anything important. I just want a kiss to know if he is a supernova or not. I just want to know; however, if it came to it, I'd prolly go all the way with him anyway = A = cause I'm a total pushover and I've dreamed of him so much. It would be nice if he was gone.
Yesterday I was so tired I went to bed at 6 and slept until 12 the next day. =A = we went and saw a movie today: Hunger Games Catching Fire. It was good. I cried three times. BAM. I'm tired now and avoiding the rp. I need to do work but I'm kinda upset. I'll force myself to do it tomorrow. Stuff at home has not been pleasant. We've been teasing my mom and she's been snapping a lot. They both have, at my brother. I can't take it. It tears me apart inside. He just... antagonizes them sometimes and I can't always side with him but I don't want him to hate me. It will be nice when I don't live here anymore.
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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
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