I wasn't really complaining in the first place.. She was.. She's always complaining..
I think that's all she knows how to do anymore.. Sometimes I wish she had died.. but I know that's not what I really want.. Im too selfish to want that. I want the real her back, but that'll never happen. I can't change the past, just look toward the future. And move on with my life. Even if it consists of constant battles with one that I love.. She's my mom.. I have to love her. I have to be there for her. Even though she thinks I don't what damn thing to do with her.. She's lost a lot of her "mind" From the accident. Short term is the biggest. It's gettin' better. But still.
But chances are she's not going to get much better than this. Physically she will, but mentally.. emotionally, she most likely won't.
We've gotten a long pretty good lately, but when she does start to fight and argue, it's always "Melissa doesn't want anything to do with me, you're taking my daughter away from me. Melissa doesn't love me." Blah blah blah.. her, her, HER. That's ALL she's thinking about! She's on a one track mind! And that's getting ME back "under her wing" well guess what.. I absolutely HATE being cruel. But I am not a little child anymore. Im not going to be "attached to my mothers hip" Now that Im finally gettin' to hang out with my friends since I've lived with my aunt and uncle, Imma continue to do so. Instead of being stuck inside all the time. Im not a toddler that needs to be watched every single SECOND of the day!.. but yet, that's what she seems to think. Im 5mins late and she gets on me about it! If I go to a friends house for acouple HOURS while Im with her for the WHOLE WEEKEND. Friday-Sunday she complains that I didnt spend ANY time with her, that I was off with my friends the WHOLE time!! BULL!!
I'm so sick of this! And so is my aunt and uncle, she thinks we're doing this to keep me away from her! How would she like it if my aunt and uncle, her BROTHER and sister in-law! Were cold hearted like my "FATHER" (That SOB doesnt even deserve that title) and let me go into foster care, she wouldn't be seeing me as often as she is now! I can tell you that much!
I love my mom, she's all the family besides my aunt and uncle and close friends that I really got. But damnit all, Im tired of being treated like this... like.. Like Im an object! A slave!.. I dont know what to call it.. maybe its both.. Whenever I dont do something that mom tells me she complains to uncle david expecting him to ORDER me to do it! Like, clean HER house! Because Im the "Slave" at "Beck n' Daves" Bull. I have CHORES I have to do. Just like any other teen my age would. If they're under the proper guidence and such.
Ugh.. sorry, Just had to get somethings out.. I think I got them, for now. Until I have to go stay with her this Thursday - Sunday.. if she starts arguing Imma just walk to Alex's, sorry mom, but there's only so much I can take.
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Im glad she didn't die...But seeing her in all those tubes, Oh wow, Im somewhat glad I came home alone that day, I cried for like 10 minutes, I don't seem to cry that much anymore. Just complain about crap..>>; -shrug- We're human, we have to get it out somehow..
-Nod, hug- Hope things don't go so badly this coming weekend. >>;I would save you by coming over, but with Danny, I don't know if Im allowed..o-o;
Dude! Remind me to tell you my dream from last night, -just remembered now we're off the phone- mad D It all Imma say is this one dude kept de-pantcing(sp?) me in the pool O_O!
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