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As people may or may not know...
lack of sleep for me...leads to me being emotionally unstable because I cant keep a lid on my damn emotions...

and a total 6 hours of sleep for a weekend will do that to me...

I was reminded of how useless I am at...just about everything...
and I had another sudden realization...almost all of my friends...can fit into a couple catagories...

-They use me in one way or another
-They throw me on the side when they feel like it
-They're back stabbers
-They dont really care what happens to me...

Thats basically all my "friends" for you
discluding about...3 or so...who I can never talk to due to their busy schedules...

It all just seems pointless to me...why do I even try?
Maybe I'll never know...

I had the horrible feeling again...
and I had decided to kill myself...
but my emotion at home is always the opposite of how I feel at school
so I doubt thats going to happen...

But a note to anyone who reads this and vaguely cares about this idiot of a person...if I dont sign on for a long time...its safe to assume that I'm dead...