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I dont know why i even try....i try being happy...
everything i do is taken...i cant leave this place...
i dont wanna leave my home...i cant do it!
i hate hurting the people i love, but i cant do this...
i try being happy, but its always taken away!!
Everything is always taken from me, why do i even
try being happy!! Theres no point anymore... ;( no one
understands, thats what frustrates me the most...Im
just scared....i wish people understood my feelings for my decisions
but they dont, at times i feel as if im alone....stuck in a world
full of fear & hatred on every corner...i wish to stay hidden...
hide from this pain & fear, so i know im safe....i wanna hide from
the world...just so i know i cant be hurt anymore...but i cant...
i guess...i cant really hide from this world, it always has a
way of finding me anyway, no matter how hard
i try to stay away from everything that could hurt me...
i just dont know anymore...