Depressing ... warning may increase likelyness to commit suicide in young adults or really anyone sad ... jk but srsly ... its sad.
I could feel his hands around my neck tighten as he killed me inside ... I never learn do I? Killers are not ones you would expect. They are people that love you as a friend or more that tear you to pieces everytime they say something ... at that moment I wished for a real murderer ... someone that isn't close (was close) to me ... that way when I look into his eyes when he stabs me all I feel is fear and pain rather than hatred and the feeling of half disbelief and half pure sadness ... the pain is irrelevant to what you feel when someone close to you kills you. The pain is shoved to the corner of your mind like an old teddy bear that a child grew tired of as they grew older ... thats the way all boys treat me. They play with me when they first get me until they grow tired of me and just shove me away like I am a meer disposable tissue ... someone to lean on, to help the pain stop and start the healing process and then just be pushed away when you can stand up alone again.